Haha Name

Haha, and now I call L.A. Los Angeles.

Eeh!

Get ready to leave my home of almost two years for Los Angeles tomorrow afternoon??...okaayyyy....!! Ah! I should ship back my internet modem pretty soon. I had a humongous, beautiful goodbye party last night, and man, I feel different. I've said goodbye to pretty much everyone who's been a part of my life for the past 21 months here, and I feel at peace in some ways, and then also like I want to go see all of them again and talk to them and keep meeting them every week or so often for the next however long like I've been doing up to now. I'm going to finish up this apartment cleaning and packing! Aaaaaahhhhh!!

Old Goodbyes

I wonder how people long ago used to say goodbye, before there was email, telephone, or even letter-writing. It must have been something amazing. Or maybe it was something very simple. In any case, it must have been so much different.

Nag-gan

My thoughts keep turning back to Nagoya. Perhaps, I am excited about that place on a subconscious level, or at least intrigued. It's like it's bubbling out of my inside a little bit every now and then. Perhaps that is the place I will spend significant time, next time I come to Japan. Though I love where I live now and will always keep coming back here.

I.Me

I am very different from the me from 2 years ago

W

Wow, I guess this really is real, isn't it?

Yeahh

Add gas utilities to that list :)

Mhm!

Helll yeah, I can cancel my own phone and electricity services over the phone in Japanese!

Oh man!!

Oh man!! I haven't listened to Rage in soo long!!

The sounds of my childhood...

Time Sense

At 7:00
ALT (Assistant Language Teacher) who took over for me after I left JET: Hey man, ready to go?
Me: Hey, sorry I just got a call from a friend who wants me to go over and pick something up from their place. It should probably take about 15 minutes or so...could we maybe push dinner back to 7...:25?
ALT: Haha, why not just 7:30? 7:25's such a specific time.
Me: Alright, cool then, 7:30.

At 7:10, over the phone
Me: Hey man, I just got finished so I can meet whenever you want.
ALT: Okay, you wanna leave now then to go pick up the other person who's coming?
Me: Hm, well maybe we should give her more time since we told her 7:30 earlier. Should I come down to your room about 7:25 then?
ALT: Uh...why don't we just meet in the parking lot at 7:30.

My sense of time has changed majorly from what it was two years ago.

Na

I went to Nagoya and it was really cool.

College

It's kind of a bummer, but mostly just weird, that I usually feel a little uncomfortable talking about college and grad school with most of my friends. I suddenly realize how uncommon it is for someone from my group of friends and family to continue school for years past adolescence. I suddenly feel different, like I stick out awkwardly from the people I love, even though there was nothing different between us only a moment ago. I feel a little spoiled for having the opportunity to go to college and even further on to graduate school if I want. I felt this for the first time in a while talking to some of my friends last night. I realized that most of the friends I've made in Japan, too, didn't go to college or quit high school after a year or two. Talking about leaving everyone and going back to the U.S. to go to graduate school makes me feel so separated from them, like a privileged child who takes for granted all the opportunity that's been laid right in front of me without me having to do anything. I know somewhere inside that it can be good to talk about college and education with loved ones who haven't pursued education that far, but it feels so arrogant. These aren't little kids you're trying to inspire to take their education as far as they can, they're grown adults who can shape their own lives by their own decisions. But maybe there are still some who want to try again, go back to school, and pursue a dream they have. Then, maybe it is right to talk about, or at least mention, my education and career goals non-awkwardly, just normally, and maybe one of my friends who's been thinking about that will find some inspiration in it. But really, who am I to think of myself as someone to give inspiration to others? Unless I am capable of doing it as any human is, as a gift from one human to another.

Studying

I might be studying soon! Yeah! Exciting!

~Image of a Star-Francisco Aguabella~

I

fell asleep listening to jazz and reading.

Wherever You Go

I'm really, really into this song today.



Damn, it's so good. Mmh!

Oh man movie

Oh man, I hope this is still playing when I get back to L.A.!

http://ny.remezcla.com/2010/latin/la-mission/

And way to have a new, tight version of Be Thankful For What You Got in the preview, right as I was getting into that song again, hehe.

Listening to the Doors, I Suddenly Thought in the Chorus to this Song, "Oh man, That's Me!"

So,

Okay! Okay? Okay?! ...Okay. ...Okay. ...O.kay... Okay? okay
Okay

Grateful and kind of happy

I only make it through hard things because of my friends and family.

Okay, time to be removed.

The Town I Live In Is Lonely

Not really, I just really like that song.

Listened to a Chicano oldies mix I made a long, long time ago last night and whoa, yeah, Chicano, that'ssss what I am...huh? Forgot some of the deeper emotions and feelings it brings out. That plus seeing an old car with a "Chicano" license plate on a friend's facebook profile. How can a big collection of metal do that? Of course, it's not just that...it's the memories and emotions associated with it, but now I'm just kind of putting out a bunch of thoughts and images from my mind in an attempt to make it into a blog post. I guess I could just forgo the blog post pretense and that would be better, though. Hm.

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(Little Anthony & The Imperials ~ Tears On My Pillow)
(Thee Midniters ~ Everybody Needs Somebody to Love)