On the way home

(Joe Bataan, Vicente Fernández, the B-52s)

On the way home from the real estate office, where I paid the next month's rent for this apartment, I thought:

We all want to stand up for other people. We want to help people stand up for themselves. But how can we do that if we don't ever learn to stand up for ourselves? We have to be able to face those situations in reality, to look at others in the face and tell them you're going to do what's best for you despite the submissive role they've presented to you as normal. I have to learn how to stand up for myself first.

So, tomorrow, I will finish the next step and tell the board of education I'm not leaving my apartment.